God's Answer to My Prayers

Rondell and I recently decided for him to get a part-time job to deal with our, my, debt. We are just tired of paying bills and getting the feeling of going nowhere so we decided to attack the bills head on. It was a huge decision for us because we are family people and are mostly together all of the time. So, we knew that with Rondell being gone some nights it would be hard on me and the kids.

He's been doing it for over a month now and had to work all weekend this weekend. That makes for long days for me with the kids. We've been having fun and really spending some quality time together but man the days are long (did I say that already?).

So today I just had Caleb all day (Jamison was at Maw Maw's, Rondell's mom). I started to have a little pity party about missing Rondell and how I wished he was home with me. Then I realized that this is an answer to prayer, a 'strange' answer, but an answer nonetheless. I have wanted for a little while now to be a stay-at-home mom. I go back and forth and sometimes realize that working during the day makes me appreciate them when I come home, but something down inside still wishes I could be at home with them on a daily basis. I want to be the one walking Jamison to her bus and getting her off the bus. I want to be the one to get Caleb on a specific nap schedule. I want to be the one to take them to the park and the pool, etc, etc.

What I realized is that's what I'm doing now. Not ideally how I would like it to be, but Rondell is a work and I'm at home with the kids. I can take them to the park, I can regulate a nap schedule, play in the backyard with them, read to them, color with Jamison without having to rush because it's close to bathtime...I'm doing that now. So, while these circumstances are not what I imagined about staying at home I need to be thankful to God for giving me the opportunity to have this time with them and make the best of it.

So, I'm kind of like a working stay-at-home mom. How unique!